The Pandemic Taught Me That I Have An Unhealthy Relationship With Food

Heyyyy! It’s been a while! So if you keep up with me via Instagram and YouTube, then you should know I recently completed a 15 day juice cleanse. Finally! I say finally, because there were many failed attempts prior. This weight loss journey has truly been a rollercoaster ride… but as of late, I’ve come to the realization that it all starts with your mental.

I’ve mentioned to you all before how my weight has ALWAYS been up and down. However, during the pandemic it was up and stuck! *Cardi B voice* I successfully juiced for 40 days, lost weight & felt amazing. Not too long afterwards, I found myself slowly falling back into unhealthy habits. But, why? Like, how? Was I eating to satisfy hunger cravings? Or was I just eating to deal with my emotions? 

The pandemic made me realize that I have an unhealthy relationship with food when stagnant. Before the pandemic, I was always on the go. As a flight attendant, you’re never really idle and for me that was such a thrill. So when the lockdown occurred you can just imagine my frustrations. Like most of us, I was left in the house accompanied by my thoughts. Sometimes my thoughts can really be a nuisance. For example,……”Will the world ever recover?”…….”Is traveling still an option?”…..”What about my job?”…. “Are the vaccines safe?”…….I mean, my mind was racing with all kinds of scenarios that may never happen! I do not  deal well with stress friend. Actually, flying and traveling does serve as somewhat of a stress reliever for me. Yet, that was no longer an option so what did I turn to? FOOD!

Addictions vary, when some people are stressed they lean to alcohol, weed, meds, etc. I wouldn’t go as far as to say I have a food addiction. But I know if I didn’t get a hold on my health and change these horrible habits then that’s probably where I would be heading. Still and all, juicing never fails me! I actually see why many religions practice fasting during certain periods in the year. It’s difficult of course, nonetheless, rewarding.

Not only does juicing help with self discipline, but internally it does something that I can’t explain. After completing this 15 day juice cleanse, my mind was clear, I felt at peace and those anxious thoughts slowly disappeared. Luckily, I’ve gained some structure & normalcy back in my life that helps me not to be so idle. I don’t want to force religion on anyone, nevertheless I’m a Christian and a praying somebody (as the church folks say)! I found that praying during the cleanse also assisted with the successful completion. I do understand that someone who really suffers from food addiction or anxiety might need more assistance, I’m simply only sharing what has worked for me. Please note, I always advocate for consulting with a medical professional. 

Anyhow, you’re probably wondering how do I plan to keep the weight off this time. Honestly I’m wondering the same because with all the variants making their debuts, I can sense another shut down coming. But, it’s imperative that I make a LIFESTYLE change. As difficult as it might sound, I know it’s possible. I really would like to transition into a  plant based/vegan lifestyle. Lucky for you, I plan to keep documenting my weight loss journey on YouTube and I’m excited to share the progress with my supporters. Let’s see where it takes me!

Oh yeah, if you haven’t done so already check out my latest weight loss vlog on YouTube! Love you & as always thank you for your support! 

Til Next Time 

-Letty